xangel105's Journal

1:11AM - thinking

ever feel like u have lost one of your best friends  well i think i have

2:09AM

When I'm lost
In the rain
In your eyes I know I'll find the light
To light my way
When I'm scared
Losing ground
When my world is going crazy
You can turn it all around

And when I'm down
Your there
Pushing me to the top

Your always there giving me all you got

For a shield from the storm
For a friend
For the love to keep me safe and warm
I turn to you
For the strength to be strong
For the will to carry on
For everything you do
For everything that's true
I turn to you

When I lose
The will to win
I just reach for you
And I can reach the sky again
I can do
Anything
Cause your love is so amazing
That your love inspires me

And when i need a friend
Your always on my side

Giving me faith
And taking me through the night

For a shield from the storm
For a friend
For the love to keep me safe and warm
I turn to you
For the strength to be strong
For the will to carry on
For everything you do
I turn to you

For the arms to be my shelter through all
The rain
For truth that will never change
For someone to lean on
For a heart i can rely on through anything
(you can rely on me)
For the world to
I can feel to...oh yeah
I turn to you

For a shield from the storm
For a friend
For the love to keep me safe and warm
I turn to you
For the strength to be strong
For the will to carry on
For everything you do
For everything that's true
I turn to you

For everything you do
For everything that's true
I turn to you

Current mood: sad

9:13AM - crappy

today is not a good day at all i feel like crap and i reall dont feel like doing any thing. i really hope this day gets better  

Current mood: crappy

8:05PM - wow its been awhile

well life has been pretty good for me so far. im still in school im in my second year now its still going great im loveing it more and more everyday. still working at sears thats going ok even though my hrs suck right now but thay will get better with in the next week or so well that what im told atleast...

nick and i are doing good we just had our 3 year this past thursday i love him to deth =)

not to much to update about but thats ok i hope all is well with everyone. 

Current mood: crappy

7:52PM - random but pretty cool

A group of alumni, highly established in their careers, got together to
visit their old university professor. Conversation soon turned into
complaints about stress in work and life.

Offering his guests coffee, the professor went to the kitchen and returned
with a large pot of coffee and an assortment of cups porcelain, plastic,
glass, crystal, some plain looking, some expensive, some exquisite -
telling them to help themselves to the coffee.

When all the students had a cup of coffee in hand, the professor said: "If
you noticed, all the nice looking expensive cups were taken up, leaving
behind the plain and cheap ones. While it is normal for you to want only
the best for yourselves, that is the source of your problems and stress.

Be assured that the cup itself adds no quality to the coffee in most cases,
just more expensive; and in some cases, even hides what we drink.

What all of you really wanted was coffee, not the cup, but you consciously
went for the best cups... and then began eyeing each other's cups.

Now consider this: Life is the coffee, and the jobs, money and position in
society are the cups. They are just tools to hold and contain Life, and
the type of cup we have does not define, nor change the quality of Life we
live.

Sometimes, by concentrating only on the cup, we fail to enjoy the coffee
God has provided us."

God brews the coffee, not the cups..........enjoy your coffee.

AND ALWAYS REMEMBER:
The people who make a difference in your life are not the ones with the
most credentials, the most money, or the most awards.
They are the ones that care

Current mood: blah

10:03AM - random

So i started a new job about 3 weeks agao at scars so far im likeing it ppl there are cool im getting a good amount of hrs witch is good i actully have some money again yeaaaaaa.


School is still going good. in about 2 months ill be a senior wow that went by fast the olny thing about going to school is its all the way in troy thats about a 20 or 30 minit drive depending on traffic and doing that drive 5 or 7 days a week depending on work im getting a little sick of driveing but thats ok ill deal with it.

Nick and and i are still going out things are still going great.

Yesterday i went over my aunt chris's house and we talked 4 a while and she finally found all her old pics of my mom and aunt pam and nana with the bird it was really cool seeing those pictures made me see that ppl are right i do really look like my mom i just wish that she was still here with me and my dad. but i know she is in a better place and i know i will see her some day when im in heven

Any ways on a better note the outher night i talked to stacey for about 2 or 3 hrs about random things like the past like when we stuffed like 8 ppl in my dads car lol to keep inmind my dad has a sun fire not to safe but we really dident have far to go so that was good and when we went all the way out to matts house after work in my dads car and my dad still doesnt know about it lol. and we talked about madison and how big she is getting.and jay and whats going on with them in some what detal it was nice talking to her we havent talked like that in a long time.

well its time to go back to bed so im out

Current mood: sleepy

5:59PM

happy easter everyone

1:01AM - i remember

so the outher day i went to my old high school i walk in in there and so much has changed for 1 over 60% of the school is black and the school is on lockdown like everyday luckly there was a gard by the door that remembered me from when i was in school. when i was in there so many memeries came back like when i was a freshmen on my first day not noing my way around. not noing the way from third floor new and third floor old because there not connected we had to go down to the second floor just to get to the outher building that was always fun and i enede up in the band room witch was like a second home to me in my 4 years i was there then i left there.

nick and i are still doing good i love him alot.

so lately i have been hanging out with friends a lot i made some new friends at school. all the girls in school are pretty cool excpt for like 2 bitches that like to talk about everyone and role there eyes at every thing ppl say hmmmmmmmm what does that sound like high school maybe i think so lol well thatall i have to say 4 now

Current mood: energetic

1:12PM

wow its been a long time i think its time to update so here goes.

~~ nick and i are doing great it haze been 2 years as of feb 1 i love him a lot ~~~~

~~i started hair school last week thats going great i really like it so far.~~~

~~jobs well im not babysiting 4 my sister nemore and im working at worfeild restront it in frasher on utica and 15 i like it there it gets me the money i need ~~~~~~~


~~~friends i really dont see or talk to my firends any more except nikki and veary rearly stacey i mean i understand stacey because she has madison. its like some people just droped of the face of the eirth.~~~~

well thats all 4 now.

Current mood: cold

3:07PM

In the last 24 hrs "have you"...

1. Had sex: no

2. Bought something:yes

3. Gotten sick: no

4. Sang (what song) no

5. Been kissed:yes

6. Ate something: yea

7. Felt stupid around anyone nope

8. Talked to an ex: yes

9. Missed someone: yes
___________________________________________________

Last person who....

1. Slept in your bed: me

2. Saw you cry: nick

3. Made you cry: my dad
4. Went to the movies with (what movie?) nick idk we havent went to the movies in a wihie

Have you Ever...

1. Said "I love you" and meant it: yes
2. Got in a fight with your pet: nope
3.

4. Been to Mexico: no

6. Been to Canada: yea


____________________________________________________

Random.....

1. Do you have a crush on someone: no

2. Do you have a crush on a myspacer: nope
3. What book are you reading now: nothing

4. Worst feeling in the world: being alone

5. Future KIDS names:ummmmmmmm idk

6. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: sometimes

7. What's under your bed?: nothing
8. Favorite sports to watch: nothing

9. Location: anywhere

10. Piercing/Tattoos: my ears

11. Favorite Alcoholic Drink: bailys

12. What are you most scared of right now: losing some one i love

13.Where do you want to get married: anywhere

14. Who do you really hate: no 1

16. Do you like being around people:yup

17. Have you ever liked someone you had no chance with: yup a long time agao

18. Have you ever cried: yes

19. Are you lonely right now: not really

20. Song that's stuck in your head a lot: party boy

21. Played strip poker: yes

22. Been beaten up: no

23. Done an all-nighter: yes

24. Been on radio/TV: no

25. Been in a mosh-pit: no

26. Do you have any gay/lesbian friends: yes

27. Was this worth your time: yah b/c im really bored

12:20AM

1. Go here.
2. Pass it on.
( my answers )

3:24PM

You are 80% Libra

1:17PM

• its been a while so here is whats going on in renee's life. nothing really much went to nac this pas weekend that was fun even though we had 2 roomats that wouldent stop complaining. but outher then that it was fun. it was nice to get away from everything for a little bit but i wish i was still there... most of that weekend we where eather in the pool or at lq. so lately i have been hangign around nicks friends more mainly because i really dont thing my friends dont want to be around me anymore except for like one and thats nikki and thats it. i mean i youst to have so much fun with u guys like stacey jay lenny amanda cory kristina and all outhers that yousto come around. but now its like the olny person that even calls me is nikki maby stacey every once a blue moon but thats it. it just sems like our group has split stacey= cant do anything because she has a boyfriend......... and a kid mike who knows matt always wants to hang out but we never know what to do cory is off in his own world lenny and amanda are always togher kristina idk and all the outhers who knows. i would like all of to hang out again just like old times but i really dought that will happin. nick and and i are doing relly great i love him so much we have almost ben going out for a year and a half wow thats a long time. well thats it for now

Current mood: relaxed

Current music: fuck that

10:41PM

BASICS
Name: renee riddell
Age: 20
Hometown: eastpointe mi
Current Location: eastpointe mi

LAST...
TV show watched: ummmmmmm
Phone call: nick
Website visited: lqarena
Meal: b-dubs
Song listened to: na
Spoke to in person: nick
Concert you attended: idk
Movie you watched on DVD/video:ero trip

FAVORITE...
Band: Green Day,
TV show: carmed
Activity: stuff lol
Food: idk
Movie:ero trip
Beverage:sex on the beach
Radio Station: 89X, 95.5, 96.3 97.9
Color:pink
Snack food: taco bell
Restaurant: bahama breeze

TRAVEL
States you've been to: michigan, ohio, illinois, indiana, maine, pennsylvania, DC, N. Carolina, South and north Carolins, georgia, texas, oklahoma, california, hawaii, arizona, missouri, alabama, and others.
Other Countries you've been to: canada,scotland
Favorite place you've been to: hawaii
Least favorite place you've been to:idk
Places you want to go to: greese

EMPLOYMENT
Do you currently hold a job: yup
If so, where? baby sitin
Last job(s) you had: meijer
Perks of job(s): idk
Worst part(s) of job(s): crying baby

Current mood: bored

2:26PM

How old are you?	20
Are u a virgin?	no
How old were u when u lost it?	20
Do u regret it or do u fell good about it?	feil good
Are u in love? Ever been in love?	im right now
Wanna get married someday?	yup
Wanna have kids?	maybe
Like chinese babies?	./.........
Ever been on TV?	yup
Whose your all time favorite band?	all 4 1
Who did u grow up listening to?	mriah cary
Whats your Funniest moment?
got any siblings?	1
do u hate them? any jelousy?	no
ever stolen any money from a relative? how much?	no
did u apologize?
ever been in jail? for what?	no
do u have a nickname, if so what is it?	brat , nay
whats your sign?	libra
what size shoe do u wear?	8%
are u hat person?	no
what was ur first pets name? your mothers maiden name? put them together and thats you Porn Star Name.	intrusting
whats ur middle name? whats the street u live on called? put them together and thats you Soap Opera Name.	lynncharles r
What brand are your shoes? What kinda shampoo do u use? put them together and thats you drag queen name.	kswisdove
got any pets? if so... what?
do u wear a lance armstrong liveSTRONG bracelet? on which rist?	no
ever want to kill ur best friend? if so, y.	no
what hurts the worst.. breaking a bone or getting kicked in the balls?	i wouldent know know how it would feal to be kicked in the balls
what color do u paint your nails?	blue
what color socks are u wearing?	white
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Current mood: stressed

Current music: its just one of those days

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11:28PM

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Current mood: lazy

9:31AM

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7:37PM

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out?
13. Emotionally, what stands out?
14. Do you wish I was cooler?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17. Am I loveable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. What was your first impression?
21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married?
24. What makes me happy?
25. What makes me sad?
26. What reminds you of me?
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?
28. How well do you know me?
29. When's the last time you saw me?
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
31. Do you think I could kill someone?
32. Do you miss me?
33. Do you think i miss you?
34. Are you going to put this on your livejournal and see what I say about you?

Put a X in the box if u would do it.


[] go out with me?
[] give me your number?
[] kiss me?
[] let me kiss you?
[] watch a movie with me?
[] take me out to dinner?
[] drive me somewhere
[] take me for a romantic date?
[] be my bf/gf?
[] buy me a drink?
[] take me home for the night?
[] lend me your sweatshirt just because you know i love it?
[]Would you let me sleep in your bed?
[] Buy me a teddy bear?
[] Sing car karaoke w/ me?
[] Sit in the doctors office with me b/c I didn't want to go alone?
[] Repost this for me to answer your questions?
[] Give me a piggyback ride?
[] Come pick me up at 3 am b/c my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere
[] Play video games with me.

[] Go to the track with me
[] Ride in the back so I wouldn't have to.
[] Give me your last piece of food because I was hungry.


D0 Y0U...
[] think im cute?
[] think im hot?
[] think im sexy?
[] want to kiss me?
[] want to cuddle wit me?

ARE WE...
[] aquintences?
[] friends?
[] in a relationship?
[] gonna have kids?
[] get married?


AM i...
[] smart?
[] cute?
[] funny?
[] cool?
[] sexy?
[] everything you've ever wanted?

HAVE Y0U EVER...
[] thought about me?
[] thought there might be an "us"?
[] thought about hookin up with me?
[] found yourself wanting a kiss from me?
[] wished i were there?
[] wished there was an us?

ARE Y0U...
[] done with this survey?
[] happy you know me?
[] mad at me?
[] thinkin bout me?
[] going to repost this so that i will return the favor?

11:20AM

well its been a really long time sinse i updated this thing so here we go

things have been going good lately im still watching tj wednsday through friday im still looking 4 a new job b/c i cant do this all my life.

went to hoffmen it was a fun trip we took the train we crashed at rein's house . lately i have ben going to play pool with some of nicks friends every thursday night.


for the last cuppple months. i went to london, london wad fun we got there like maybe at like 4 and nick beth and i played a game just to see the maze its huge i almost fell down the ramps lol then dave, chris and some people met up with us and we went to this bar restront and had some drinks and had food and had some frien pichels mmmmmmmmmm good then we went to this outher place with was right around the block from lq london and drank more by this time nick was pretty drunk at this time and then we went bask to lq played in the tourny it was fun then nick and i tryed to go back to the hotell but we ended up getting lost not fun at all then we finaly got back there and went to sleep the next morning i woke up to chris and dave talking so i got up and we went to the pool after theat we went back to the room and woke up nick and beth. after that we went to mc donalds had lunch then we headed home after the 3 hr drive we went to beth's house sat there and then we went home.

nick and i are doing great it has been 14 months now and im still verry happy.

well thats all 4 now

Current mood: working

2:20PM

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. renee
2. brat
3. nay

THREE FAVORITE MOVIES:
1. bad santa
2. bring it on
3. Billy Madison

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. Irish
2. Italian
3. scotish

THREE PLACES YOU LOVE:
1. Florida
2. nicks house
3. cali

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. hair tie
2. orange shirt
3. cow pants

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS:
1. Green Day
2. blink 182
3. ..........


THREE PEOPLE YOU COULD NOT LIVE WITHOUT:
1. parents
2. friends
3. nicholas

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN’T DO:
1.
2.
3.

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. swimming
2. playing pool
3. bowling


THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. nick
2. get out of work
3. go to canada

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Florida
2. Hawaii
3. cali

THREE MUST-WATCH TV SHOWS
1. full house
2. boy meets world
3. a makeover story

THREE THINGS I WOULD BUY WITH $1,000
1. pay off all debts
2. buy stuff 4 nick
3. and stuff 4 me

10 YEARS AGO I
1. was 10
2. nurdy
3. quite

FIVE YEARS AGO I
1. was 15
2. a sophmore edhs
3.a nice girl


TWO YEARS AGO I
1. was 18
2. out of high school
3. working at k mart

ONE YEAR AGO I
1. was 19
2. working at meijer
3. i was going out with nicholas

YESTERDAY I
1. had a really bad day
2. went 4 a bike ride with nick
3. went to nicks day dot better

TODAY I
1. woke up
2. rode my bike to my sisters
3. baby sat tomhas

TOMORROW I WILL
1. wake up
2.ride my bike to my sisters
3. baby sit

5 SNACKS I ENJOY
1. pop
2. chips
3. apples
4. toco bell
5. choloct

FIVE THINGS I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT
1. family
2. nick
3. money
4. friends
5. ...

Current mood: lazy